He's my energizer..
Julie..Happy 22nd Birthday girlfriend!!Love ya..
shall type out a short entry before i head da bed.damn sleepy man..had to wake up extra early juz now coz i needed to make my way to da polyclinic to get my MC.n as always polyclinics are overcrowded.i was there till da closing time.waited for nearly 1 n a half hours to c da doc,but da visit in there lasted for only 10 minutes.how pathetic!!but it's ok...as long as i get da MC,i'm happy.so yeah made my way back home after dat n waited for my dear Ms Liza to come.yeps Liza came over to study with me n broke her fast here too.hey gurl hope u felt comfy at my home.it was a great time chilling with u juz now.
so tommorrow is back to work...will b on morning shift and after dat PARTYY!!!woohooo...gonna catch a wink now n hopefully i'd be able to wake up later to finish up my ICC revision.good nitez...c",)
it's been 4 days since my last update...been pretty caught up with school yet again n some personal issues.today was suppose to make a trip down to JB again with those peeps but decided not to go ahead coz 1st:i need to mug for my papers,2nd:diana is on nite shift,3rd:i haven't changed da photo in my passport.yah yah da immigration officer sound me already coz i looked damn different.
am currently under recuperation from a medical complication n shud be back fit enuff in a wk's time.so here is miss boring lin stucked at home for a couple of days n i tink i'm like gonna b a housewife material in da making.ha ha ha.juz realised how "hard" life is without a maid.
i'm in search for a part time job for someone...anyone got lobangs??do tag me at da board or sms me yah.supp papers are nxt monday n tuesday.haf started hitting da books but nuthing goes in.ha ha ha..muz do something bout it.am working tommorrow but i haf dis strong urge to take MC,coz i really wanna mug for my papers.furthermore i doubt i'll b studying on sunday coz i'd be partying after work...yeah.ha ha ha...am anticipating dat.no peeps i'm not clubbing or wad nots...juz celebrating a colleague's birthday...ha ha ha.so to whoever my colleagues who're reading,juz shuddup bout me taking MC for tommorrow kaes.:P. i know i owe u guys one..n oh yah to da 4PM members who're reading dis entry,sorry i can't help out tommorrow 4 3R though i'm taking leave from work...i tink at dis point of time my exams are a priority.hope u guys understand...furthermore i heard u guys had overwhelming response rite...hehee...
time is 11.20pm.feel like sleeping...or shud i hit my books back?c how ah..to diana:dun forget,it's 28 November..i know it's still a bit too early but i can bet ya i will get a big treat from u.hahahaha...to A:dun despair,when there's a will there's a way.hope things are going fine for u.i'm here when u need me fren :).
am gonna get my daily dosage of my current addiction.wad issit u may ask?go figure...adios amigos!!
JB was hell great fun!!!i made 2 new handsome frens today..syuk n kamil.ahahahaa...well i was supposed to hit my books today but my dear diana asked me to follow her n da 2 guys to jb.i was quite hesitant in da first place coz i didn't know these 2 guys but oh well i needed a change of environment,so i went ahead.da guys fetched us from home n off we drove to jb.i haf to tell u,kamil's car is gorgeous!!
it was easy to get along with dem coz dey're like easy-going n with diana around,i was comfortable being with dem.we broke our fast at singgah slalu restaurant n these guys were kind enuff to blanja us...wahhh...free food..making it more delicious!after dat we lepak2,go wash car n drove ard till 11.we were back in singapore by 11+ n kamil drove us home.
has been quite some time i had such fun.an outing filled with laughter n joy...definitely worth it.hahahaa..thanx diana,syuk n kamil.when shall we go again?so there goes a bluey monday which ended pretty well..*chuckles*
i suddenly feel so blue dis monday morning..talk about monday blues.i was wondering whether wad i did yesterday was rite?i hurt his feelings indirectly,did i?yah i tink i did..love can't be forced rite...it's juz too soon.dis heart has not healed from da past n dis heart is still occupied by his presence.physically i've let him go but inside me lies a different feeling.my heart still feels for him.dis is da truth.i dun wish to lie to myself..i know i know..i ought to give a try to other options.but nahh...too many things hinder me from doing so.furthermore i'm shut,air-tight.tots of him always flash across my mind,especially when i'm down or alone.c lah all these matters of da heart..shucks!!
anyway dis is my blog...i am free to blog down wadever i want.if u ppl cannot take my ramblings,kindly exit from here.
*smiles,smiles,smiles*hehehe...had a good sunday.obviously dat's y i'm smiling.had a great time out with zack n "F" juz now after a hectic day at work.zack wanted to accompany me break my fast at far east plaza,so we made our way there after punching out.met some of my frens there too,who were enjoying their meals.zack was definitely a good company,n now i understand y i can "click" with him but da rest can't.haahahhaa...
after dat i met "F" for a while since he asked me out."F"...i know u will b reading dis.thanx for da bear.it was very cute.n it shall b hung in my locker."F",i dun want u to get my intentions wrong.i accept da bear as a sign of friendship ok.if there is something else dat is of ur thought,i hope u dispose it away.i haf told u,n am gonna tell u again,nicely.it's strictly frens aite?..i dun feel anything for u.i'm sorry..i haf to be direct.i dun want u to hope.but anyway thanx..i feel honoured..
another person i wish to thank here is "H".kaulah sahabat sejati.ahhaahaha...thanx for being my updater for da past weeks.it sure is easy to stick to my promises to him when there's someone who helps me willingly.Weird ain't it..kau kawan aku n kau kawan dia..tapi kau tolong aku padahal kau lagi rapat dgn dia.confused?ahahahaa..dat's btwn me n her.i wun ferget da 4:59am call.semangat kau..but really thanx...i'm glad i still hold on to wad i promise.n "H",biar pecah di perut jgn di mulut.aku trust kau...dun worry..:)
okaez am bz chatting with my dear zack,zaf n liza currently.will head to slumberland soon n haf sweet dreams,hopefully.can i dream of u?no "F"..not u..haahaha...
A day dat started unpleasant ended well indeed.i'm all smiles..to adibah,dannie n ibrahim..thanx for da enjoyable time out.yeah these peeps met me after work to break fast with.so after a filling dinner at lucky plaza,we proceeded to geylang to haf a look at da surroundings there.as expected there was a massive human traffic jam..it's so disturbing seeing all da mats n minahs.haahaha..can't u ppl dress a bit decently during dis ramadhan month?haizz...
i was actually quite stoned ah by da time we were at geylang cos i was deprived of my sleep much earlier in da morning.geylang was da same like da past yrs?not much of a difference ah.so after battling thru da crowd,we decided to sit down and haf some drinks to chill ourselves.talked n talked till abt nearly 11pm.time does fly when u dun realise it.n finally made our way back n here i am blogging,still clad in my top n jeans.n boy am i verryy sleepy.but before dat..there's something i muz blog down.
To "F",thanx for da gift..it was really a pleasant suprise from u.but so sorry i left it in da locker n haf not managed to open it up.but den again,wad's ur motive of giving me a present?ehehhee..i wonder...weird ain't it.but anyhoots thanx.ur gesture truly made my day.n dat's y i'm all smiles..
aite..i really tink i need to sleep now.am still feeling da slight giddiness n to add more to it,i'm on morning shift tommorrow.sucks..till da next update!!
u seriously can't keep ur mouth shut dun u?talk bout respect..early morning n here i am feeling pissed.i haf told u umpteen times,i haf no more issues with wadeva it is.can't u juz get it rite?wad i told u is not meant to be shared with da whole world.These hands feel very light to land dem onto ur face.i'm still patient.u sms-ing me in da wee hours does not make things betta either...u obviously am not respecting me as a fren.
i haf my own life to lead rite now..pls get dat clear..u tell me many times dat she's ur fren.ok so be it..i'm not bothered.i only said i hope ur happy if she's ur choice.i only said choice?i didn't say anything else...wud i even care if she's gonna b ur gf one fine day..no am NOT.y?coz i've decided to move on..
i am not gonna play any of these childish n foolish games.I'VE HAD ENUFF!!!let me lead my own life peacefully.i still believe in fate though but i am not hoping.Get dat clear..i am not hoping anymore.
It's ibu's birthday today!!!Happy 46th birthday mum...Love ya to bits!!My mum has been my "backbone" all these while in life.She brings me up when i'm down n she has been da protective shield over me.Despite the misunderstandings dat we rarely haf,i still respect her as someone who is worth called a mother.My mum has successfully educated me n my siblings n has instilled da necessary knowledge of duniawi n ukhrawi in us.i truly thank god for giving me a mum like her.she is a priceless gift n no one can replace her.She is a 100% certified role model in our hearts.
iBu,thanx for being there for me n adik2 when we need u.N thanx for being such an understanding parent.Kakak cannot imagine life without u ard...All ur sacrifices towards us will never perish from our thoughts.My promise is i will take care of u till ur last breath..insyallah...Kakak love u iBu...n so does Hisham and Syafiq..n not forgetting Ayah!
kaez managed to snap some pics juz now..here u go...
ice-cream cake from Swensen's...courtesy of urs truly:)
iBu..feeling kinky.hahaahahaa...
iBu & aYaH..So Loving..
Me & Hisham..with ayah being an extra
Getting Crazy With My Sibz
Me & My Maid..Love her too..
Them with my granny..
juz got back from terawih prayers with diana.somehow my legs are aching.ehheheee..tired lah.was out da whole day n made it in time to buka at home.went out to town with nad.it's been donkey years since i last saw her n boy i miss her loads.had a great time with her..doing all da shopping n stuffs.we were non stop walking from noon.luckily we managed to do our prayers at the royal plaza surau.get to rest da legs 4 a while.heehhee...Nad left at abt 5 while i continued my search for my stuffs.managed to get a top from Mango,n my cosmetics from MAC.so much for being broke.well mum was kind enuff to sponsor some.thanx mum.ur da best!
to nad,dun u worry so much bout him kaes.i understand how u feel..give him n urself time,den come to a decision.dun make it in a haste.wad's with peeps having relationship problems in dis month huh?hmmm..really tragedy october.n those guys out there..who do u tink we gurls are?ur bankers izzit?or someone u can vent ur anger on?haizz...macam2 lah perangai.let's juz chill..yeahh dat's betta.results coming out tomorrow.am not anticipating it coz i know i will haf supp papers to go.outz for now..
yet another day at home..how bored!!but am sure looking forward to tomorrow..before i forget..HAPPY 20tH BIRTHDAY LIZA!!!hey gurl know wad dun despair on dis happy occasion.like u told me b3fore,u haf frens ard who truly understand u n who will be there 4 u.Welcome to da single's club.yeah am not ashamed of it.I AM PROUD TO DECLARE THAT I AM SINGLE......n oh pls i'm not advertising myself or wad sorts.
no..am not hoping for anything,neither am i looking forward to a fresh relationship.i tink dis is da rite time for me to take things one step at a time.staying optimistic has been da best option for me so far,n yeah am coping damn well :).*a positive attitude creates positive results*
am not gonna get intimidated by ppl ard,neither am i gonna fear being mocked at.let ppl say wad dey want if dat is wad makes dem satisfied.i do realise that i made lotsa mistakes in my past n i sure haf sinned a lot,but i thank god for waking me up from all these n gave me another chance to mend my ways.well at least i still haf da urgency to change my wrongdoings.hey humans are never perfect ain't i rite?
n to whoever is concerned,if u feel dat by telling her things bout me is gonna satisfy u of da grudge u haf against me,by all means do it.i couldn't care less.n if she still wanna hold it against me,by all means too...at least i'm not a hypocrite.i know wad it means to stay loyal to one.somehow u will still hold a special place in my heart even after wad u haf done.like i haf always said,there's always an instinct in me which will lead to da truth when it comes to u.n i know my promises to u will still remain kept by me.
ermmm..i had a lot to say juz now but i kinda turned blank.nvm will blog it down another day if i happen to recall back.anyhoots am off to bed soon.I'm looking forward to sail thru my singlehood yet once again after a yr n i'm pretty sure there are much more things awaiting me in da future,rather den dealing with all these small kids n matters of da heart.ahahahaa...
wow..been quite some time since my last update.got too caught up with work larr n i will juz bunk in once i reached home.been a bz wk so far,am thinking of taking up da other part time job.c how lahh..i'm having a big dilemma over all these jobs.i'm currently being offered a position of an IT support executive at one private company.this job has an interesting scope with an interesting pay n da best thing it's juz near my home.i could like walk home 4 lunch.BUT i'm like tied down with a contract with da current company i'm working 4.damn!!i'm thinking whether i shud juz break da contract n go on with da full time job.but den who's gonna pay da freaking bond??ermm...
anyways i did my thang again dis wk.boy do i feel relieved.to YOU,i've made myself clear n i haf truly apologised.it's up to u as to whether u wanna accept my apology.it came straight from my heart n it's sincere.
I juz realised dat things dat i dream of always come true.no..i am not kidding.i experienced it myself.at times how i wish i was not given such dreams cos i end up getting hurt after knowing da truth.N it hurts when u know urself da amount of sacrifices u haf put in gets unappreciated n worse off u got backstabbed.well i guess dat's life.when do u tink u will stop hurting my feelings?nvm..u wouldn't even care i guess.HaakZ...
oh btw pardon for the sentimental malay song..hahaha...juz feeling a bit "jiwang" n i tink there will b more upcoming.hahahaa...not always u know Lin so jiwang.kaez can't wait to finally start my fasting officially tomorrow.i'm gonna try make full use of dis ramadhan month to catch up with my Quran reading n fulfilling my 5 times prayers in a day,n not forgetting da terawih prayers too.insyallah i can get a peace of my mind.God will guide me thru...
pretty boring thursday i muz say...had to go to school juz now for some stuffs which was like pretty lame.n after dat met da boy to pass his keys which was left in my bag 2 days back.he was kind enuff to send me to my granny's place at pasir ris after we haf reached my place.hahaha...*lin was fickle minded*spent some time with my granny,aunts n cuzzies there n made my way back home with mum at abt 6pm.after maghrib da rest left for da mosque 4 their terawih prayers while i was at home watching singapore idol..mean mean girl..hahahaaa...well i can't go to da mosque wad??so juz sit at home larr...oh btw i tink taufik has improved quite a lot n yeah u haf my support boy!anyhoots happy ramadhan to all muslims out there.make sure use this golden opportunity to increase ur pahalas n decrease ur dosas.
*P/S:to da boy,ur mum is so cute over da phone..now i'm known as aminah courtesy of her.ahhahaa...:P
went out again today..was pestered by mum to wake up at 8am to go melawat.an ustaz passed away n he happened to be my sedara somewhere somehow.so there goes another pious man called to answer god's call...inallilahiwainailaihirajiun.looks like this year's terawih prayers will not b da same without him at masjid mattar.anyhoots after dat made our way back n had some guests followin us back home.my aunts came over n while dey were bz chit chatting,i made my way to dreamland after cooking something 4 dem to eat.
at abt 1pm,i was awoken by nana's sms n got ready to meet her at changi airport..wanted to slack at starbucks n since it was her birthday i treated her there.both of us also did our chocolate shopping at T2.hahaaha..waddya expect of choc addicts?adibah joined us later.after much slacking,adibah n i headed to bedok to haf scrumptious food n after dat back home sweet home.Pixs coming rite up!!
Fav hangout of all....
Some of da chocs bought..
Pink Spanish Rocher!!!I swear i'm gonna get dis as part of my wedding gifts later when i get married..ehhehee
Me & da birthday gal..
Nana manjanye..
i swear i look a bit darker n i hate da eyebags..eergghh!!but anyhoots i enjoyed myself..
i'm dead beat...i'm happy..yes i am.Sentosa was great!!da sun,sand n da sea.had my long awaited swim.mission accomplished before puasa.yeshaa...weather was great n i had great company too :).Today was juz purrfecct neva wanted it to end.But oh well it does haf to end,but da memories are stuck in my head.
to U..thanx 4 da lovely time n company.hope u enjoyed urself as much as i did.No worries i know wad's playing in ur head..juz relax k.
i'm exhausted to blog..will end da entry with today's pics.enjoy!
*P/S:he wore dat t shirt!!so much 4 complaining.hahaha...kidding kaez..
Let's do a long entry today..n reflect on a serious topic,LOVE...ahahaa..k k i'm serious.
what is love?dis is my personal definition of love.Love is the strong feeling in you that just puts u on the top of the world.It is a special bond that is created between 2 ppl of the opposite genders.A bond which takes lots of time,ample trust,sacrifices and sincerity.Love is also about accepting the partner 4 wad he/she is.But isn't it true love is blind too..
Because of love,we're willing to do almost anything.Love can turn a person to be da biggest hypocrite eva..It's especially so when u haf 2 people in mind n ur heart is battling on which one to choose.n u end up putting a facade onto ur ownself.
true love??does it really exist?well i do believe in it.true love is way different from juz love.y??because true love will haf a great impact on u,i repeat GREAT!i'm not sure how many of u out there haf experienced dat kinda feeling but yeah when u haf found dat true love,ur heart will totally be saved for that one person n it totally shuts air-tight to other options.dat true love keeps u going on,being ur pillar of strength n ur source of hope.
love at first sight/monkey love...i so dun c any love in there..hahhaa..i mean if u fall in love with a person at first sight ,it goes to show that ur liking da person for his/her outer appearance n not da innerself.When u make da effort to understand da innerself of a person,his/her character,likes & dislikes,that is wad u can call love coz ur willing to go thru da learning process of the other person.
Actually love is weird.It is a wonderful feeling yet at da same time it can probe u of ur own happiness.But then again,we shud take da initiative to prevent dat from happening.Ur own happiness lies in ur own hands..
hahaaa...suddenly i feel blank to type.anyway here i would like to extend my thanx to my buddies who haf been supportive of me all these while especially in dat period of time.u guys know who ur.n to U...thanx a lot.I love U!!!
*True Love Never Dies*
These are da photos from da cafe vienna outing with my volunteer group.there's loads of photos but i'm juz plain lazy to link up..hahaa..enjoy!
great day today minus da fact dat i had a pay cut AGAIN!!damn these ppl...muz check with dem tommorrow.but anyway yeah i had fun with my best bud helmy,nana n adibah.made my way to 4Pm to return my tixs n met helmy there.he fetched me n we made our way to town by his car..walked ard..had free lunch.wooohoo!!thanx bud!wanted to get some stuffs but decided not to.after dat i made my way to tampines to meet nana.nana told me some stuffs but errr...hahaahahaa...i dunno lah i find it funny.so we sat at coffee bean n waited 4 adibah to come.sat there for a while n later made our way to long john while nana had to report in to work....did some shopping at tampines mall n later met up with helmy again n had another round of dinner at istanbul.n later made our way home..i'm so like tired n yeah i'm on morning shift tommorrow...haaizz...
monday's plans are brought forward to wednesday.alemakk!!!but it's ok ah.i hope dat thing doesn't come on dat day or earlier..kalau tak spoil plan man.i feel glad dat i managed to help someone today.i'm happy for wad i did..okaez gonna end dis happy day soon n hopefully tommorrow turns out gd too...insyallah.*toodles*
i did my thang today...i am glad for today.i can't wait for monday!!i haf decided on lotsa things today.only 1 thing sucked..da exam!!*shrugs*
ferget it..it's OVER!!!!!but not goodbye yet to school.
i can haf my beauty sleep now n disturb my bro.he's having paper tomm.hahahaaa...
tommorrow is shopping time!!ka-chings coming in.shud b going out with my best bud.
i am glad enuff i did not lose that something precious of mine.i'm glad god gave me room to think.i believe in God,fate,myself,him.
Shall i blog it down abt wad happened today?Hmmmzz....hahahaaa..well maybe not larr.*too personal :P*
but anyway ICC paper was a confirm bad one.Supp paper here i come...Still haf a last paper tommorrow.Tink dis subject will join the ICC for supp..but shall try.we'll c tomm..
You look into my eyes
I go out of my mind
I can't see anything
Cos this love's got me blind
I can't help myself
I can't break the spell
I can't even try
I'm in over my head
You got under my skin
I got no strength at all
In the state that I'm in
And my knees are weak
And my mouth can't speak
Fell too far this time
Chorus:
Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep, I can't sleep I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you (Too lost in you) ooh
Well you whispered to me
And I shiver inside
You undo me and move me
In ways undefined
And you're all I see
And you're all I need
Help me baby (help me baby)
Help me baby (help me now)
Cos I'm slipping away
Like the sand to the tide
Flowing into your arms
Falling into your eyes
If you get too near
I might disappear
I might lose my mind
oooh
Chorus:
Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep, I can't sleep I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you (Too lost in you)
I'm going crazy in love for you baby(I can't eat and I can't sleep)
I'm going down like a stone in the sea
Yeah, no one can rescue me(No one can rescue me)ooh ooooh
Oooh, my baby
Oooh, baby, baby, baby
Chorus:
Baby, I'm too lost in you
Caught in you
Lost in everything about you
So deep,
I can't sleep I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you (too lost in you)oooh
I'm lost in you
I'm lost in you
I'm lost in everything about you So deep (so deep),
I can't sleep (no,no,no)
I can't think
I just think about the things that you do (you do)
I'm too lost in you (Too lost in you)
Time check,7:00am..i'll b sitting for the paper in 2 hrs time...we'll c how it goes later.i'm praying for da best..
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i'm back from my LAN paper..well...it was manageable.Thank God!!i haf a tuff paper tommorrow.Frankly i dunno anything of dat subject.Guess i haf to crash course later.Gotta hit da books soon..Updates later.
*Shit*i dunno wad i juz did...was it rite?omg..pls hope he takes it da positive way.i dreamt of her again,making dat twice in 2 straight days..y her?sheeshh...am i being paranoid or wad?tomorrow is exam yet...............arrgghh..a lot of things playing in my mind.i juz need to clear my papers.pls pls.
I am strong to go thru all these.These are juz challenges that i haf to face in this period of time.God will help me...I'm sure he will...
it's 11.30 am now.i ought to open up my books.HELLO LIN!!LAN PAPER IS 9AM TOMMORROW!!!!U HAF LESS DEN 24 HRS!!!greatt...
tried my best mugging today.manzzz it was tough.omg..i dunno wad's happening..a lot of times i was distracted but i tried pushing dem aside.i was hoping 4 something now but i doubt it'll happen.pls pls pls...i need to study.
i had loads of fun with da volunteers juz now at Cafe Vienna..no words can describe dem.Thanx shymm for da compliments and thanx sabrina for everything.Will soon post pics..i'm lazy to blog coz i'm feeling hurt at da same time.yes,U hurt me............
