it's over.
2 yrs of being with u has diminished.it's already a chapter closed.i never knew that the time i gave u to think over stuffs would lead to this.i was disappointed.it's easy for u to say that this is the end.breaking up over the sms.simple isn't it?for goodness sake,ur a guy!can't u face me n tell me?
u told me,ur parents are against our relationship.frankly i find it hard to believe,knowing how well ur family is.i WAS tempted to call ur mum n clarify things with her.i was near 100% to doing it.But as i thought again,i shud just let it go.n i find it totally ridiculous when i received this sms from u,"I'm sorry...This is the end...I can't meet u...This is a promise i made to my mum..."
I seriously dun understand.You used to tell me,u believed in a thing called love.But y not uphold it?Not work on it?Yes i do understand that a relationship will not work without blessings from our parents.But in this case,i find it so unbelievable.I can darely say i know how ur family "works".i shall not bring up any instances here.I am still in a state of confusion.Not knowing what n who to believe.
I hate myself for being naive,giving u those chances.When all these while,i've been crying n dwelling over issues that has affected me in many ways.I tot that with me trying to change my attitude to suit u the best would help.But in the end it backfired.i even received the cold treatment from u.u just chose to ignore me.even worse,u told me much later that we shud just be friends if i wanted u to treat me nicely.treat me nicely like how u treat ur friends.wad was dat suppose to mean?isn't that plain selfishness?
wasn't the decision of mine to forget ur totally unexpected past good enough to bring our relationship closer?y did u have to add on to it with ur cold treatment which eventually lead to our break up?I wouldn't be much affected if before this,u had treated me good but due to ur parents not liking us being together,we HAVE to break up.i just felt like as if all these has been pre-planned.just look at da flow of the process of breaking up.
so much to say,yet so much censorship in myself.
azhar,if ur reading this,i just wanna tell u that i'm not blaming ur parents at all.i know what actual reasons lead to this break up.
Gone are those promises that we used to vow upon.
Gone are those moments that we had.
Gone are those kisses n hugs that we shared.
i'm not dissing u off.i wanted to meet up and talk with u,but u refused.dis is the only way to let things out in me.
i accept this break up as it is.As upset as i can be,i'm moving on.
"Dreams aren't what they used to be"
Lynn's Penny For Tots at
6:07 PM
