I've always believed in putting my innermost self & interest when i decide to commit in something that i do.After much thinking and ponderings,i realise that this is the most important factor that keeps me going.I used to think that failures will bring me down.But as i look upon the journey of my life of 22yrs,i soon began to see that it was all these failures that bring me to where i am now.To where i stand.I'm beginning to take the bright side of failures that occur in me. :)
With regards to my previous post,pls do take note that i'm not bringing him down.i just had to pen down wad i felt in me.i couldn't let it bottle up coz i'll know i wun be able to take it.So azhar,if u had felt that way,i would truly apologise.But remember,u did say that i could say anything i want to n u wun blame me for it.
I'm calm n composed now.I truly thank god for giving me dat serenity in such a short period of time.I'm taking the situation the way it is.I remember a fren telling me,"Life is unfair,but at times u need to learn how to let go of the person u love most."n yes i'm holding on to that.thank you very nice~.
I dun deny that at times,my mind will be clouded with fond memories of us.To a certain extent it does affect me in a way or another.But i'll take all that in stride.The past is history.Let memories be the ones filling the gaping hole in my heart.
Somehow i'm glad that i'm working now coz it really takes up a lot of my time n it prevents me from thinking of the negative effects of our break up.Not forgetting my friends n colleagues who have been my backbone.Yes fir,i am a fighter and yes i am a small girl with a big heart.
I'm hoping to open a new chapter of my life pretty soon.No,not a chapter with someone new.Instead a new chapter with goals that have been laid out.It's not the time to jump into another relationship.I have many things to achieve as yet.N one of them is to get myself a bit closer to god.
Life is short.N therefore i dun see a need to instill hatred btwn each other.
Maybe we weren't meant for each other now.But if it's fated that we will be together in time to come,i welcome it with open arms.Provided both of us are willing to commit n stay true to each other.For now,i'll take things at a time.
To love is to hurt.
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