another colleague left the department today.i'm feeling sad of her departure but at the same time i'm happy as well.haaa..y??coz i'm back to being the youngest in my shift.kehekhekhee...*evil grin*
one by one,the colleagues are leaving.i wonder when will it be me?i love the people here,but the job sucks!the pay is worse.do u know dat as a procurement specialist in other companies,the pay is much higher than here in IBM?n when i tink of it,this line is not my forte.i'm here just to gain the experience and learn more about the working world.
somehow i've planned my immediate career path.i have tots of resigning from IBM if i get accepted to NIE.yes,Lynn wants to try teaching.hahahaaa...do u know dat being a teacher was my childhood ambition?ok make dat my second choice.my 1st choice was actually to be a lawyer.u know la i can talk a lot.kehkehee...but my parents discouraged me from pursuing that dream due to unforseen reasons.so i opted teaching as my nxt dream career.i started relief teaching n giving tuition during my poly years.i tried to use those experiences as a stepping stone for myself,but instead i lost the passion to teach.i dunno y...it just died.den when i began my career here in IBM n also my tuition sessions in SSP,i come to realise that teaching is something i do best.in SSP,i relived my passion for teaching n that motivated me to take up NIE.i'm praying for the best.i'm only willing to give it one shot.if i get accepted,alhamdulillah...that will be my path.if not,i will still go on and search for the right career for myself.NEVER SAY DIE!!! =P
on another note,i received an invitation to batam with his family,which will be in late February.it's something like their family gathering kinda thingy.i wudn't haf mind if it was like with ppl i know.but this is with his whole EXTENDED family.i'm kinda in a whirl as to whether i shud go.3 things playing in my mind:
(1)if he wanted me to come along,why didn't he personally ask me out?why did he need to get his aunt to ask me rite?
(2)why does his mum wants me to follow?it's not like as if i know her dat well la kan.
(3)it's their family gathering.y da hell shud i tag along?i'm not part of the family at all!!well apparently almost everyone "anggaps" me as one already.
so how?dilemma tau....it's been a long time i made my way to batam.i miss my indon friends.n at the same time i wanna go Nagoya n shop!!!bagaimana dong?gwe nggak bisa memutuskan-nya.gwe bingung skalik!
this is wad happens when u get close with the family when ur in a relationship.but in my case,this is the story of the EX!!!!howwwwwww???i'm suppose to like decide by this wk.somebody...anybody....pls help me...
sheeshh..i took almost 1hr of my break time to type this meaningless entry.i betta get back to my pile of cases which needs to be resolved.
Lynn's Penny For Tots at
6:45 PM
